Friday, May 27, 2011

Plucking up courage

Well, I`ve plucked up the courage, and I`ve done it.

After weeks,

....no, after months

.......well, to be truthful after a couple of years really

I`ve done it!


Well, I`ve done really the easiest part, I`ve still got the most difficult part to come and I`m not looking forward to that.

What on earth am I talking about, you`re probably saying to yourselves.....


Actually probably nothing out of the ordinary to the majority of you, but to me a big thing.....

.... I`ve booked myself a holiday away for September! Oh, not abroad, I`ve no wish to go abroad, but up to Yorkshire.

I`ve not been away for a holiday for the last three years. We used to have a regular annual holiday, until my mother went into where she currently lives - but she is the big problem - she doesn`t like and doesn`t want me going anywhere. Doesn`t even like it when I go to the city just 26 miles away occasionally for work. Yet she`s perfectly well looked after where she is, with people on hand 24/7 to care for her.

So after all this time of agonising with feeling I wanted to go away and have a break, but knowing how she`d react I haven`t done anything about it. Now, I`ve decided enough is enough and I`m going this year. And, I`m going to do something we`ve never done, and that is go Self-catering, which I think will suit me better.

But..... I`ve yet to tell her, but I won`t do that until much nearer the time....and doing that is something I`m dreading.

4 comments:

Z said...

I do sympathise, I know other people in your situation. In some instances, the worry makes the aged parent/friend ill (or behave as if they are) which forces the person to cancel. A friend of mine, having had to turn back because of phone calls from the friend she cares for on several occasions, booked a coach trip on the advice of her doctor, so that she couldn't turn back! So be strong and determined when the time comes to go, and good luck!

Ivy said...

Thanks Z

Spring said...

that seems a really big problem...I think it's better to inform your mother of your trip when you got there...so she couldn't do anything...
I live abroad so my family do not see me very often, and it means that I am free for myself.
for you I think only the first time sill be a little hard then she will get use to it...
anyway I hope you enjoy your holiday and come back very fresh to your mother

Lani said...

Oh... Yorkshire... that sounds heavenly! Go and enjoy. There's always time to let her make you feel guilty later. ;)