I`m not looking forward to today. I`m scared. I know I`m a coward.
Today I have to go to the hospital to have an angiogram, which is apparently a tube inserted into my groin to then put dye into my heart to see what it happening with the veins and the heart.
I`m scared and frightened on a number of things, - what are they going to discover? What is the test going to be/feel like? and, worst of all - what happens if where they insert it starts bleeding again when I get home? in some ways that`s my greatest fear.
I am fortunate though, in that I have some good friends - one is taking me to the hospital and staying there, and will stay the night with me when I come home, as I have to have someone with me. Another good friend is coming to collect me after it`s all over and I can come home. I`ve just had another friend ring me up to give me good wishes and moral support.
I just wish at this moment that it was tomorrow and that it was all over.